This week I have been puzzling over questions whose answers are not as clear-cut as I would like them to be. I feel desensitised in many respects when I watch the news or read what is happening in the world. The horrors reported from Israel, from Iraq, from other countries are told in graphic detail, but my response to them seems almost detached. It’s as if I cannot cope with any more atrocities, any further acts of barbarity, any more slaughter or torture. Instead of being moved and broken by these stories, I feel numb. as if anaesthetised to pain. My eyes register the horror; my ears hear the wails… and yet I feel like I have a heart of stone at times. Scripture urges us to weep with those who weep, to mourn with those who mourn (Rom 12:15). It urges us to remember those who are being mistreated as if we ourselves were suffering. (Heb 13:3) God clearly has little patience with the self-seeking and self-righteous; He urges us to ‘learn to do right; seek justice. Defend the oppressed.Take up the cause of the fatherless;plead the case of the widow’ (Is 1:17), to ‘loose the chains of injusticeand untie the cords of the yoke, to set the oppressed freeand break every yoke.Is it not to share your food with the hungryand to provide the poor wanderer with shelter – when you see the naked, to clothe them,and not to turn away from your own flesh and blood‘ (Is 58:6-7), to rend our hearts and not our clothes. (Joel 2:13) The whole Bible rails against injustice and suffering with powerful imagery and fervent passion. My spectator reaction is not right.

Then I learned of the death of Robin Williams, an actor whose talents I have much appreciated over the years, and the tragic nature of his death and his struggles with mental illness and addictions instantly shocked and pierced me. Which led to further questions. How could I hear of the deaths of thousands of Iraqi Christians without weeping and yet be stunned into tears by the tragic death of one man? Why could one death move me when so many left me simply numb?

It is easy to castigate ourselves for the failings in our responses, but worldly sorrow simply leads to regret. I think questions often tell us more than answers ever do (‘Could It Be?’, Michael Card) and it is important to wrestle with the anomalies and shortcomings of our hearts without being overwhelmed by them (God is greater than our hearts, as John reminds us!) For me, part of the answer lies in the individual. Robin Williams is one person. I can empathise with his failings and shortcomings, with his struggles with depressions, with the aching, insidious nature of addiction. I can understand how one person can live with both joy and agony at the same time, how difficult it is to hear the voice of God above all the other voices shouting out to us or whispering snide suggestions to our hearts. I can weep with such a person and with their families because I understand the relentless, ongoing nature of mental struggles.

When we are faced with mass torture, rape and slaughter, when tragedies such as the Holocaust are taught in history classes, the sheer scale of the suffering overwhelms us. The only way we cope is to become detached from it. For us to truly be moved, we have to have some individual we can relate to rather than ‘humanity’. ‘Humanity’ is too impersonal for us. As we are individual, so we have to enter into suffering with individuals. Empathy cannot be impersonal.

Helplessness also freezes our responses. We feel powerless, useless, unable to do anything that can make the situation any better. We wonder if our signature on a petition (such as the one here) really will make any difference, or even if our prayers can change our personal situations, let alone world situations. Helplessness paralyses, which is why despair is so numbing.

God constantly affirms the value of the individual and the value of the individual’s response. Our individual prayers and individual actions are required if we are to see change in the world. As we wrestle with God over the state of our own concrete hearts, as we beg Him to soften our hearts and help us to see the world with His eyes, as we long to be like Jeremiah, a prophet whose eyes overflowed with tears (Jer 9:18, 13:17, 14:17, Lam 1:16), as we pray ‘Your kingdom come, Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven’ (Matt 6:10), we hold on to the fact that the individual matters and that God knows each individual and cares for them. We may well have no answers. That doesn’t mean God doesn’t, nor does it mean He is not actively working in situations that seem, to our natural eyes, desolate and hopeless. God is sovereign and in control, even when we so clearly are not.

Last night’s sermon continued the series on ‘Everyday Church’, this time looking at the topic of ‘everyday worship’. By studying Psalm 34, we learned more about whole-life worship, as defined by Rom 12:1, yielding everything we have and are to God: ‘Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship.’

Everyday worship: not defined by circumstances

Ps 34 urges us to bless and extol God at all times and is so positive we might be forgiven for thinking it was written when David was living in favourable times. The heading makes clear that this was not so; the psalm was written by David ‘when he pretended to be insane before Abimelech, who drove him away, and he left.’  The historical background to the psalm is found in 1 Samuel 21 and shows us David fleeing from King Saul, who was determined to kill him, and forced to hid in enemy territory, living like a fugitive, living amongst foreign kings who did not trust him, resorting to feigning insanity as the only tactic he can think of which will preserve his life. In those difficult, unfavourable circumstances, he makes a determined choice to rejoice and to boast in God, rather than wallowing in misery and moaning at the difficulties he is facing. Outward circumstances do not have to determine our spiritual response: as Rend Collective say in their song ‘Joy’: ‘pain will not define us; joy will re-ignite us.’  When we are faced with conflicting emotions, we have to decide who and what to believe. When circumstances tell us one thing and God tells us something which is directly contrary to what the circumstances are telling us, we have a choice: believe the visible or trust in God. David chooses to trust in God, focussing on God’s ability to deliver, refusing to be defined by circumstances, but only being defined by God.

Everyday worship: dependent on God

Everyday worship is dependent on who God is. Worship is rooted in God’s character. The reason we don’t have to be defined by circumstances is because God is completely independent of the circumstances of our lives. He is above and beyond the circumstances which may seem to shape us or hem us in. He is a God who can deliver out of adversity. (Ps 34:7) He is good and full of blessing. (Ps 34:8) David reflects that ‘the lions may grow weak and hungry, but those who fear the Lord lack no good thing.’ (Ps 34:10) God is ever-vigilant and ever-aware: ‘The eyes of the Lord are on the righteous and His ears are attentive to their cry.’ (Ps 34:15) He is able to hear when the righteous cry out and He doesn’t just hear: He delivers us. (Ps 34:17)

This principle of focussing on God rather than on circumstances was ever present in David’s life. When the Amalekites, enemies of God, raided the Negev and Ziklag and took captive the women and everyone else in Ziklag, both young and old (1 Sam 30:2), David and his army knew sorrow and despair. David faced opposition not only from the Amalekites but from his own men who talked of stoning him, but his strategy was to encourage himself in God and thereby find strength. (1 Sam 30:7) Ultimately, worship is a choice we make. Matt Redman reminds us ‘And when the darkness closes in, Lord, still I will say “Blessed be the name of the Lord.”’ (‘Blessed Be Your Name’, Matt Redman) Kutless remind us ‘Through the best, through the worst, Jesus, we choose: we will worship You.’ (‘We Will Worship’, Kutless) Worship cannot be left to those days when we feel like worshipping, when things are going well for us and God seems eminently real and close to us. Everyday worship happens every day simply because we make it happen through an act of our wills. (see Ps 27:8, Ps 57:8, Ps 91:2)

Everyday worship: done with others

Ps 34 also teaches us  the importance of corporate worship as part of our everyday worship. Whilst faith is personal and individual, David reminds us ‘Glorify the Lord with me; let us exalt His name together!’ (Ps 34:3) Eugene Peterson says ‘The whole life, the complete life, cannot be lived with haughty independence. Our goal cannot be to not need anyone.’ (‘Run With The Horses’, P 164) Much of the psalm is written to other people and reminds them of the benefits of praising God (see Ps 34:7, 9, 10, 17, 22) As we come together in worship, our whole focus is turned to God and we are able to understand more of the bigger picture; as we pause from the busyness of everyday life to ‘be still and know that I am God’ (Ps 46:10), as we deliberately and consciously take our eyes off ourselves and look to God, we put ourselves in a place where we invite God to come and search us, to speak to us, to reveal more of Himself to us. 

Dave spoke this morning at Cherry Tree Court from Luke 7:36-50, the story which tells us of the woman anointing Jesus at the home of Simon the Pharisee. Luke often gives us personal details not found in other gospels (the Parable of the Prodigal Son and the story of Zacchaeus are only found in Luke’s gospel, for example), and he clearly relates to the woman’s heartfelt response to Christ’s lavish love.

The woman is described as having a ‘sinful life’ and she comes to be with Jesus because she knows she desperately needs His forgiveness and unconditional love. The depth of her repentance and love is shown in the lavish gift she pours on Him – perfume costing a year’s wage, poured from an alabaster jar (in itself a beautiful pot.) She cries wracking sobs and weeps tears of shame and gratitude in an outpouring of emotion which clearly made Simon, the host, uncomfortable and made others discuss the waste of such extravagant devotion. Jesus, however, never views devotion in coldly clinical terms, remarking that those who have been forgiven much love much, whilst those who have been forgiven little love little. Simon’s curiosity in Jesus is intellectual; he presumably is confident of his own righteousness and therefore can remain detached from Him. Those who know their need for love and forgiveness cannot be so measured in their response to the lavish, unconditional love which Jesus offers us freely – but at great cost to Himself. The woman’s selfless devotion prepares Jesus for the burial which is to come.

Do we realise what God has done for us? Do we understand how desperate our situation is without God? Only when we see the depth of our sin and the desperation of life without God can we come to appreciate all He has done for us.

‘I am broken at Your feet
Like an alabaster jar
Every piece of who I am
Laid before Your majesty

I will bow my life
At Your feet
At Your feet
My lips
So lost for words
Will kiss Your feet
Kiss Your feet

Oh the gravity of You
Draws my soul unto its knees
I will never be the same
I am lost and found in You.’ (‘Alabaster’, Rend Collective)

We also had a birthday to celebrate:

Geometry is defined as the branch of mathematics which is concerned with the properties and relations of points, lines, surfaces, solids, and higher dimensional analogues. I struggle even to understand that definition! I vividly remember maths lessons at school dealing with shapes. Everyone else loved these lessons, because 2D and 3D shapes would be brought out and all these kinesthetic learners who loved handling things and learning from touch revelled in these practical lessons. I can simply remember agonising over how many sides and faces and edges a square had and wondering who on earth really cared about all these different shapes…

The linguist in me, however, loved the names for these shapes. Triangles obviously had three sides  and three angles: the name itself told you that! A pentagon was a five-sided shape because its very name told me so (from pente and gonia, which is Greek for five and angle.)

A hexagon in a six-sided polygon for similar reaons (hex is Greek for six). I rather like hexagons, because they tessellate so well:

I also remember feeling a deep satisfaction when I first learned that France is often called ‘the Hexagon’ because of its shape:

Thus, my love of languages kept me going through heptagons, octagons, nonagons, decagons, hendecagons, dodecagons and the like, even when I was entirely bored with counting sides and learning other geometrical terms related to these shapes!

Today, that interest in words (rather than the amazing world of shapes) resurfaced. Garry, in his job as a mechanical engineer, often has to deal with drawings and turn these drawings into a 3D reality. He did it when designing a model of the Buckminster Fullerene (affectionately known as the ‘Bucky Ball’, technically known as a spherical fullerene molecule with the formula C60.) The model, made by Garry,  is shown below with Nobel Prize Winner Professor Sir Harold Kroto who discovered this molecule.

Now he is on with a task for church (to be revealed at a later date, hopefully!) which requires similar skill and when I was surveying the drawings, I asked what those ‘plastic-cup like things’ are called. (You can see I struggle with words when I don’t know the correct ones!) He told me these were frusta. Agog with anticipation at discovering a new word, I was back in the world of geometry. A frustum is the portion of a solid (normally a cone, as in this case, or a pyramid) that lies between two parallel plans, cutting it. Confused? It looks like this:

I have no doubt that Garry and others will have great delight in wrestling the properties of this shape into the design they actually want. For me, the joy is in discovering that the Latin word ‘frustum’ simply means a ‘piece cut off‘. A new word to add to my vocabulary. I’ll probably never have cause to use it again, not being an engineer, mathematician, aerospace engineer (where frustum is the common term for the fairing between two stages of a multistage rocket like Saturn V, which is shaped like a truncated cone) or computer graphic designer (where it describes  the three-dimensional region which is visible on the screen, formed by a clipped pyramid.) But I will feel immensely satisfied at knowing what these people are talking about in future!

We are immensely grateful for the people at church who volunteer their time and efforts to help improve the building. Thank you to Garry, Stephen, Stacey, Jade and James who were willing volunteers in painting and to Mark who put up the scaffolding for us on Friday night.

James’s height was definitely useful, given the height of the room!

Stephen bowing to his father’s superior skills?

Jade in her coveralls:

Stacey and her cloud dream:

However, there are countless more people to be thanked. The church’s leadership gladly invest time and money into everything that is done in the church. Once the decorating is completed, a new floor surface will be fitted along with a sink to facilitate painting and other messy activities. Dave and Ray were busy discussing the best location for the sink, gladly giving their plumbing expertise another outing!

Those helping with the coffee morning willingly kept workers going, supplying them with drinks and biscuits. Stepladders were loaned so that more people could be involved in the work at the same time. All of this teamwork is greatly appreciated by us all. THANK YOU!

In our continuing desire to improve the facilities we are able to offer local people, we have recently begun work on decorating the children’s room. We began to clear the room of furniture and put down cardboard to cover the flooring:

The first job was to make the notice boards into chalk boards so that these can be used not only to display work but as a teaching aid for Sunday School:

Then a group of volunteers started work on the ceiling, turning this into a blue sky with fluffy clouds!

Concentrating on the clouds:

The finished ceiling:

Next, walls were tackled:

Round one completed:

Continuing teamwork:

Glossing: