The subject of martyrdom and global disasters is not one which has us rushing to find out more! Both subjects feature in our world already, and in Revelation 6:9-17, we read about the fifth and sixth seals opened by Jesus which let loose further woes in our world. Whether these correspond to things happening already or refer solely to things which have yet to happen has been hotly debated over the years, but whichever way we look at these things, we see God’s wrath and judgment as well as a longing for justice to be done on the earth as it is in heaven.

In his vision, John saw under the altar the souls of those who had been slain because of the word of God and the testimony they had maintained. (Rev 6:9) They cry out to God, ‘How long, Sovereign Lord, holy and true, until you judge the inhabitants of the earth and avenge our blood?’ (Rev 6:10) The cry, ‘How long?’, has been heard throughout the ages (see Ps 13:1-2, Ps 94:1-3). Once more, we are reminded that time is in God’s hands; only He knows the time until He puts all things right and makes all things new. It is never easy to wait for God, but we must continue to trust that at the right time, He will act (see Gal 4:4).

It would be difficult to paint any scene more moving or more terrible than that described at the opening of the sixth seal. All the elements of a great catastrophic judgment of God are here present, namely, a great earthquake, the sun becoming black, the moon becoming as blood, the stars of heaven falling like ripe figs, the heaven departing as a scroll, and every mountain and island moving. Whether these things are interpreted literally or figuratively, what is clear is that this is a time of testing and unparalleled disaster. The judgments of war, famine, and death, and the martyrdom of the saints which have been outlined earlier in the chapter have largely originated in human decision and in the evil heart of man. The judgment described here, however, originates in God as a divine punishment inflicted upon a blasphemous world. We often struggle with this aspect of God’s nature, but must hold in balance the total revelation of God as given in the Bible. The Lord is not only “merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness, keeping steadfast love for thousands, forgiving iniquity and transgression and sin,” but He is also the One “who will by no means clear the guilty” (Ex 34:6–7). We need to hold in balance God’s love and justice, God’s mercy and punishment. They are not mutually exclusive, and God has provided – and continues to provide – time and opportunity for all men to repent (‘The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.’ 2 Peter 3:9) As we read this chapter, we are aware that we can only stand by the grace of God. Peter comments that a knowledge of what lies ahead should motivate us to live holy and godly lives now (2 Pet 3:11-12). It would be easy to focus only on the negatives or the unknowns in this chapter, but we must retain both a secure understanding of God’s character and a humble reverence and awareness of God’s holiness as we progress through John’s revelation.

I am an only child and so it was often left to my own imagination when it came to playing as a child. I would gather my dolls or soft toys for pretend picnics and act out different scenes, voicing all the parts in these scenarios quite happily. Talking to yourself in this way is a healthy and normal part of growing up; I enjoy listening to my grandchildren doing this with their Barbie dolls now.

As we grow up, we continue to talk to ourselves, but by and large we internalise these conversations lest others think we are odd (or because we do not want others to hear what we are saying to ourselves.) These internal conversations are not just monologues; they often contain dialogue as we argue different points of view and consider how we feel and how we should act.

We are often not aware of these conversations, which may well include admonitory phrases. When I drop something, for instance, the conversation often starts with, ‘You’re so clumsy, Julie!’ or if I lose my keys (which I regularly do on a daily basis), ‘How could you be so stupid? You know you’re supposed to put them there: why didn’t you?’

Whilst many of these internal conversations seem harmless and inconsequential, the truth is that what we say to ourselves is actually very important and these conversations to ourselves can either build us up or tear us down.

It’s important that our inner dialogues are as consistent with truth as our spoken words to other people. Paul told the Ephesians to ‘speak the truth in love’ (Eph 4:15), and this applies not only to what we say to others, but to what we say to ourselves. Hebrews 13:6 says, “So we say with confidence, ‘The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?'”

This is the kind of positive self-talk which puts problems into perspective and builds truth into our souls (and if we do not build truth into our souls, we cannot expect others to.) It’s significant that this self-talk is actually quoting Scripture to oneself (the reference is from Psalm 118:6-7). There is a solidity and stability to Biblical truth which is not found in the ‘positive confessions’ advocated by the world, however helpful these may be at times. The very best words to speak to ourselves are God’s words, because these words are truth. They are not tainted by subjectivity; they are not tarnished by bias or prejudice.

When we stop to listen to our internal conversations, we must make sure that these are rooted in truth or we will end up defeated, dejected and depressed. It isn’t just about being positive or optimistic or ignoring life’s problems. It is about speaking God’s word in confidence and then allowing that word to permeate our whole being and shape our thiinking and attitudes.

Michelle Obama says she tries to start each day with a message of kindness to herself because she struggles daily to like and accept herself and has a ‘fearful mind.’ I would urge us all not only to be kind to ourselves, but to speak truth to ourselves, God’s truth, as this has the power to set us free.

We were pleased to welcome Joy Gascoigne from Grimethorpe this evening. She spoke from the book of Esther, reminding us that this book is rooted in real life in real history. Our lives too are rooted in a real time and place, and we can often feel as insecure and vulnerable as Esther. She was orphaned and perhaps felt that life wasn’t fair or that she could not be expected to make a difference in the affluent world of Persian culture, since she was an exiled Jew. Nonetheless, she is evidence to us that God uses all circumstances to teach us and prepare us. She spent a whole year being prepared to be the king’s wife, undergoing numerous beauty treatments; it would have been easy for her to be frustrated with the time this took or to forget that she was privileged and become used to such luxury. Esther’s relationship with Mordecai shows she was grounded in faith, however, and we learn much from her life, chiefly:

1. Waiting time is not wasted time. Often, God uses preparation time to shape our characters, teaching us patience and perseverance and testing our loyalty. If we are faithful in small things, we can be trusted with bigger things. God is interested in the routine and the mundane as well as in the miraculous.

2. God positions people for His purposes. Mordecai just ‘happened’ to overhear a plot to assassinate King Xerxes; the king just ‘happens’ to have a sleepless night and read in the records how Mordecai intervened on his behalf. Esther’s elevation to the position of Queen shows us how God moves people as He sees fit, ‘for such a time as this.’

3. Victory needs both determination and a plan. Esther demonstrated both. She was determined to do her part (‘if I perish, I perish), but also had a specific plan as to how to approach the king and what to say. Prov 16:3 says ‘Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and he will establish your plans.’

4. What was meant for evil, God works for good (see the life of Joseph and Romans 8:28)

The book of Esther gives us encouragement and confidence that God’s ways will prevail.

Fredrick spoke this morning from Revelation 3:7, reminding us that the key of David is held by Jesus and how He is the key to everything in life. God has given us access to the Father through Jesus (who said ‘I am the door’ and ‘I am the way’); Jesus is the door to new life. Jesus in our lives can do amazing things and open doors to new things: new plans, new areas. Sometimes these things are only accessed through trials and difficulties (Fredrick’s church is currently in the middle of a court case as they are being accused of breaking the law in baptising people and with building regulations), but God can work through every circumstance and use everything.

David faced new challenges in his life with Goliath and discovered that he could not win the battle with the old things (Saul’s armour) but needed a different key (five smooth stones and a sling.) We too need God’s ‘new key’ if we are to see new areas of church growth and faith.

In the evening, Fredrick shared about the work in India, and how God has enabled his church not only to move into a new building but to repay the loan on this within two years and to go on to support 100 pastors in nearby areas as well. The tailoring programme run by Reeba will open in a third venue helping gypsies to learn tailoring skills in December. They are seeing God’s work expand and want to continue to see God’s kingdom come in India.

Their church building

Worship services

Sunday school

We are very pleased to have Fredrick and Reeba with us and have already been busy with them. They arrived with us on Thursday and attended our prayer meeting that evening:

They visvited our Parent & Toddler group on Friday and also had afternoon tea at the Snap Tin Cafe, which hosts a sewing class on Fridays. Fredrick was happy to show the ladies photos of the tailoring programme and speak about the work done there, and we were pleased to meet the wonderful staff at the cafe.

Yesterday we took them to York, where we enjoyed a wonderful lunch at the famous Betty’s Tea Rooms and also visited the Castle Museum (which charts the history of York) and saw the new statue of the late Queen outside York Minster.

We are pleased they will be ministering at both our services today (Sunday) and will be visiting other churches tomorrow before they move on to Norwich. Join us at 10.30 a.m. and 6.00 p.m. to find out more about their ministries in India.

Tonight is our prayer meeting at 7.30 p.m., and we are pleased to welcome Fredrick and Reeba from Bangalore to this meeting.

Fredrick studied at Mattersey Bible College many years ago and we were his placement church while he was there. We have been pleased to stay in contact with him since his return to India and in 2017 a team from our church visited him and Reeba in Bangalore to see first hand the ministries we support. Fredrick is particularly involved in supporting small local churches in India and has used our donations to purchase ‘talking Bibles’ and to help the homeless.

Reeba runs a tailoring programme for women (especially widows), teaching them sewing skills so that they can ultimately support their families through this means of employment. Our donations provide sewing machines to help these women become self-sufficient on completion of the sewing course.

Fredrick and Reeba will be ministering at our church this weekend at both Sunday services, so if you’re interested in finding out more about this work, please do come along.